My friend is doing a blog for 10 days different activities to inspire creativity. I stole this days idea :)
Today, we’re going to start off with a fun and thought provoking writing activity. Finish the statements. How easy is that?
1. Nothing inspires me more than…
2. I’ve always dreamed of being a…
3. If I had more ______ , I’d be more creative.
4. One new thing that I want to try is…
5. One thing that I am rather proud of myself for doing is…
6. One place that I desperately want to visit is…
7. When I was younger, One thing I loved doing…
8. Today on a scale of 1-10, I feel…
inspired:
creative:
I thought it would be fun to answer these myself!
1. Nothing inspires me more than being the best me for my son. He is my perfect little angel that I have been granted the gift of growing with. I want to be the best mom for him :)
2. I’ve always dreamed of being a I have a long list, but a loving wife and mother and my current dreams. I would love to have several children if the family environment affords it.
3. If I had more time , I’d be more creative. I think we could all say that :)
4. One new thing that I want to try is maintaining a schedule for myself--becoming more organized!
5. One thing that I am rather proud of myself for doing is taking care of my son along with all the other responsibilities I have put on myself while maintaing a positive attitude!
6. One place that I desperately want to visit is the Grand Canyon. And Australia, but the first seems more practical. I have been so close and even flew over it once, but have yet to actually visit.
7. When I was younger, One thing I loved doing was playing house. How ironic ;)
8. Today on a scale of 1-10, I feel…
inspired: 7
creative: 4
So I am not feeling too inspired or creative, but it was fun to think about these things for a few minutes.
I am planning a blog next that I saw somewhere in my reading 101 things to do in 1001 days! Now that is putting a challenge on paper.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Where have all the feelings gone?
Finally had some friend time this evening. My best friend I have grown up with came over to hang out at the house. It was nice to get some adult conversation--since most of my day at work is spent glued to the computer with hardly any words, and my evenings are spent taking care of my baby so not much return conversation. Anyhow, point being I had a fun time tonight and laughed and enjoyed myself like I haven't in a long time. I thought how weird and almost foreign it was to FEEL so much. It kind of surprised me at how blank my feelings have become toward things in the past year or so. Not sure exactly why, but I have some ideas.
It was a nice reminder to feel more :) Maybe now would be a good time to figure out where the feelings went!
It's late...I am sleepy...maybe I will update this once I find them.
It was a nice reminder to feel more :) Maybe now would be a good time to figure out where the feelings went!
It's late...I am sleepy...maybe I will update this once I find them.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Good Morning Lord!
I don't intend for this blog to be religious based although that is the foundation of my life, but I wanted to share this this morning particularly because it was meant for me :) My mom forwarded me an email-you know those annoying chain emails don't delete or you will be cursed kind of deals--but the prayer in the email was EXACTLY what I needed today!
I have been stressed with work. Working on a new project that keeps coming up with continuous issues. And a house I just bought that is bleeding me dry. (Just found out I need to buy a new HVAC on top of everything else I just did). So I was in a grumpy mood this morning. I was playing the role of Debbie Downer...so here is the message I got :)
Dear Lord, I thank You for this day, I thank You for my being able to see and to hear this morning. I ' m blessed because You are a forgiving God and an understanding God. You have done so much for me and You keep on blessing me. Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or thought that was not pleasing to you...I ask now for Your forgiveness.. Please keep me safe from all danger and harm. Help me to start this day with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude. Let me make the best of each and every day to clear my mind so that I can hear from You.. Please broaden my mind that I can accept all things. Let me not whine and whimper over things I have no control over. And give me the best response when I ' m pushed beyond my limits.I know that when I can' t pray, You listen to my heart. Continue to use me to do Your will. Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others. Keep me strong that I may help the weak... Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement for others. I pray for those that are
lost and can' t find their way. I pray for those that are misjudged and misunderstood.. I pray for those who don' t know You intimately..
Thanks for the reminder Lord :)
I have been stressed with work. Working on a new project that keeps coming up with continuous issues. And a house I just bought that is bleeding me dry. (Just found out I need to buy a new HVAC on top of everything else I just did). So I was in a grumpy mood this morning. I was playing the role of Debbie Downer...so here is the message I got :)
Dear Lord, I thank You for this day, I thank You for my being able to see and to hear this morning. I ' m blessed because You are a forgiving God and an understanding God. You have done so much for me and You keep on blessing me. Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or thought that was not pleasing to you...I ask now for Your forgiveness.. Please keep me safe from all danger and harm. Help me to start this day with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude. Let me make the best of each and every day to clear my mind so that I can hear from You.. Please broaden my mind that I can accept all things. Let me not whine and whimper over things I have no control over. And give me the best response when I ' m pushed beyond my limits.I know that when I can' t pray, You listen to my heart. Continue to use me to do Your will. Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others. Keep me strong that I may help the weak... Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement for others. I pray for those that are
lost and can' t find their way. I pray for those that are misjudged and misunderstood.. I pray for those who don' t know You intimately..
Thanks for the reminder Lord :)
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
In need of a blog
No topic really for today's blog. I just need to blog! I have a lot swirling in my head today. Work is being madness, my baby turned 1 today, and some tragedy has struck a friend that seems too sad to even bear. All in All I want to call today off and either start over or fast forward until tomorrow. This is one of those days where I am SURE I will not be doing much to better the life of someone else. I think I may even be detrimental to others today...I am in a foul mood, and really have no exact explanation other than a culmination of the above stuff.
I need a vacation--from work, from daily goings on. I need a vacation from being me for a day (well minus my lil man-- he can come too of course!) How do we let our lives get to this point. From one day to the next it can be so radically different. I loved something my friend read to me last night. Off topic somewhat, but fitting in a way. She was telling about this Christian marriage book she has been reading and describing how we have a need to be loved. We crave love, and only God can fulfill the never ending need we have for love. It is when we look to our mates to fill this void that we come up short handed and anting more. Leading to an unsatisfying marriage etc. The example was given that the couple could of had the best night of their life the night before, but in the morning it all starts anew on the quest for reassurance and more love. The similarity being that no matter what the previous day held we wake up unfulfilled and starting the search again. Isn't it lovely to be a human :)
This can mean so many things and be interpreted so many different ways, but for me today it means thank God I get a new tomorrow!! Thank God for the break in time between one day and the next that wipes the slate clean and gives us the go ahead for a new day. So not to write off today, but I have made peace with today being what it is--thank you please bring on tomorrow :)
I need a vacation--from work, from daily goings on. I need a vacation from being me for a day (well minus my lil man-- he can come too of course!) How do we let our lives get to this point. From one day to the next it can be so radically different. I loved something my friend read to me last night. Off topic somewhat, but fitting in a way. She was telling about this Christian marriage book she has been reading and describing how we have a need to be loved. We crave love, and only God can fulfill the never ending need we have for love. It is when we look to our mates to fill this void that we come up short handed and anting more. Leading to an unsatisfying marriage etc. The example was given that the couple could of had the best night of their life the night before, but in the morning it all starts anew on the quest for reassurance and more love. The similarity being that no matter what the previous day held we wake up unfulfilled and starting the search again. Isn't it lovely to be a human :)
This can mean so many things and be interpreted so many different ways, but for me today it means thank God I get a new tomorrow!! Thank God for the break in time between one day and the next that wipes the slate clean and gives us the go ahead for a new day. So not to write off today, but I have made peace with today being what it is--thank you please bring on tomorrow :)
Friday, March 12, 2010
Nostalgia
Wikipedia says- The term nostalgia describes a yearning for the past, often in idealized form. Perfect, but the idealized form can only mean one thing...disappointment! I try hard not to create unrealistic expectations of situations because from experience I have learned that it only leads to disappointment. So I like to think of Nostalgia differently. To me nostalgia is about the feeling more than anything.
I was driving in to work this morning sitting in crawling traffic. It was raining this morning so everyone thinks we must drive no faster than 20 mph. This gave me plenty of time to think at least. I started thinking about how things are never quite as you think or remember. For example, I just moved back to TN from FL. I had all these nostalgic thoughts--warm fuzzies--of days gone by, of times spent with family and friends. I was moving "home." And to my disappointment "home" was not what I had remembered it to be. It was that faint memory of things past. Home was that place in the past not this place I had returned to. It was somewhat of a rude awakening to see how friends have moved on and how family to had moved on in a sense. The home I remembered was gone. Thank you Nostalgia! I looked back to my physical home in Florida and felt more at "home" there. How weird. I guess it is true that home is where the heart is, as cliche as that sounds- it is so true.
Again I am reminded of my quest to live in the present and not in the memories--longing for the feelings of the past. Some days it is difficult not to live off the memories. Some days it feels good to live in the past--those feelings spur me on to make a better today :)
I like to look at Nostalgia as a sweet escape. Those memories are special to me. They are mine. They are things that I can pull out and relive anytime I want. And, put away when I am done. Not that we have to live in those memories, but we can live with them as sweet reminders of days gone by!
I was driving in to work this morning sitting in crawling traffic. It was raining this morning so everyone thinks we must drive no faster than 20 mph. This gave me plenty of time to think at least. I started thinking about how things are never quite as you think or remember. For example, I just moved back to TN from FL. I had all these nostalgic thoughts--warm fuzzies--of days gone by, of times spent with family and friends. I was moving "home." And to my disappointment "home" was not what I had remembered it to be. It was that faint memory of things past. Home was that place in the past not this place I had returned to. It was somewhat of a rude awakening to see how friends have moved on and how family to had moved on in a sense. The home I remembered was gone. Thank you Nostalgia! I looked back to my physical home in Florida and felt more at "home" there. How weird. I guess it is true that home is where the heart is, as cliche as that sounds- it is so true.
Again I am reminded of my quest to live in the present and not in the memories--longing for the feelings of the past. Some days it is difficult not to live off the memories. Some days it feels good to live in the past--those feelings spur me on to make a better today :)
I like to look at Nostalgia as a sweet escape. Those memories are special to me. They are mine. They are things that I can pull out and relive anytime I want. And, put away when I am done. Not that we have to live in those memories, but we can live with them as sweet reminders of days gone by!
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Living to Die or Dying to Live
So which is it? I personally like to think that I am dying to live making each day count, but there are of course those days where you feel like you are merely existing and marking off one more day until your last. Not in the morbid I want death to come sense, but existing on this planet without making even the slightest contribution.
Today I was thinking...as I spend (too) much of my time doing...what would people say about me at my funeral? I have heard this question posed before so this is not some huge philosophical breakthrough, but I actually took the time to think about it today. More importantly what would I like for people to say/think at my funeral. I came up with a long list of things and definitely not all good things. So I thought some more...what can I do to live a life that is full of meaning that gives people something to talk about once I am gone. To clarify- what other's perceive is not my motivation rather a way to monitor my progress of meeting the internal goals I have set for myself.
This is where the blog was born :) I want to track for myself my journey to well- "The End!"
I am not a technically correct writer by any means so please close your eyes to my blaring grammatical errors. I am a person that believes in efficiency, and time spent editing is time wasted. If you read the blog and get the message then hey it served the purpose.
As all the ideas for a blog were swirling in my head I couldn't help but remember back to when I was a typical (well maybe not so typical) 7 year old getting ready for bed. My parents enforced the noraml night time regimen, and as I was going through my nightly shower I would develop a lecture. Yes a lecture at 7...because of course I already knew everything and needed to teach everyone else all that I knew! That day the lecture may be on "why you shouldn't force your kids to eat cold spinach" or whatever lovely event had inspired that night's mental conversation.
I look back and laugh, but really it is evident that I wanted a life that was able to help/teach others.
Feel free to follow along :) I hope to put on paper some of the things that matter to me in life. Some of the things that I do to make a difference. And f course some of the failures in trying to do so. I think it is important to have a chronicle to look back on in dark days to remind yourself of all the lovely ones that have been and will be in the future. A day is justs that one 24 hour period of time. What shall I make of this one?
Today I was thinking...as I spend (too) much of my time doing...what would people say about me at my funeral? I have heard this question posed before so this is not some huge philosophical breakthrough, but I actually took the time to think about it today. More importantly what would I like for people to say/think at my funeral. I came up with a long list of things and definitely not all good things. So I thought some more...what can I do to live a life that is full of meaning that gives people something to talk about once I am gone. To clarify- what other's perceive is not my motivation rather a way to monitor my progress of meeting the internal goals I have set for myself.
This is where the blog was born :) I want to track for myself my journey to well- "The End!"
I am not a technically correct writer by any means so please close your eyes to my blaring grammatical errors. I am a person that believes in efficiency, and time spent editing is time wasted. If you read the blog and get the message then hey it served the purpose.
As all the ideas for a blog were swirling in my head I couldn't help but remember back to when I was a typical (well maybe not so typical) 7 year old getting ready for bed. My parents enforced the noraml night time regimen, and as I was going through my nightly shower I would develop a lecture. Yes a lecture at 7...because of course I already knew everything and needed to teach everyone else all that I knew! That day the lecture may be on "why you shouldn't force your kids to eat cold spinach" or whatever lovely event had inspired that night's mental conversation.
I look back and laugh, but really it is evident that I wanted a life that was able to help/teach others.
Feel free to follow along :) I hope to put on paper some of the things that matter to me in life. Some of the things that I do to make a difference. And f course some of the failures in trying to do so. I think it is important to have a chronicle to look back on in dark days to remind yourself of all the lovely ones that have been and will be in the future. A day is justs that one 24 hour period of time. What shall I make of this one?
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